http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dzlRPoyt2OA
I remember listening to this song at the age of 16, completely and utterly in love (as teenagers tend to be).
Everything is so extreme - running on such high emotions is tiring but seriously exhilarating. As one gets older i feel like we start leveling out. Leveling out to a banal, flat logic. There is a line running down the middle (of emotion) and we stay in that area. I am starting to think that it is better to feel terribly sad rather than 'uncomfortably' numb. Maybe that is why we like watching movies and listening to music because for a while we can and are allowed to live in that tragically romantic reality that we used to know. When did it become an annoyance or a pathetic characteristic to be a romantic? When did it become inappropriate to talk about feelings and emotions? I hear myself apologizing every time i sound dull or down - worried that i am dragging other people down my damp, muddy hole.
Being emotional and sensitive is now frowned upon, while sounding practical and logical is praised. Well i am sorry but when people tell me with straight, serious and nonchalant expressions on their faces that happy marriages are a myth and that 90% of men cheat of their wives; i just can't seem to play up to that 'grown-up' - i am realistic role. I still want to believe in love and i still want to dream of having a happy family. "You are so naive" they say, "dont get upset at me - im just being realistic" ... That is usually when the conversation ends because i decide i do not feel like letting one conversation ruin my entire day.
The point is why would you go through life undermining some of the most important and special relationships - keeping your distance and 'watching your back' when you could live your life in a beautiful light? Anyway this has gone from 16 year old love affair to serious marital commitment.
Being positive can give positive results is what i am saying - all in theory of course (for now)...
I think we should try and think about things a little more like 16 year olds - minus the getting drunk on the sideswalk and crying our little fragile hearts out.
I remember listening to this song at the age of 16, completely and utterly in love (as teenagers tend to be).
Everything is so extreme - running on such high emotions is tiring but seriously exhilarating. As one gets older i feel like we start leveling out. Leveling out to a banal, flat logic. There is a line running down the middle (of emotion) and we stay in that area. I am starting to think that it is better to feel terribly sad rather than 'uncomfortably' numb. Maybe that is why we like watching movies and listening to music because for a while we can and are allowed to live in that tragically romantic reality that we used to know. When did it become an annoyance or a pathetic characteristic to be a romantic? When did it become inappropriate to talk about feelings and emotions? I hear myself apologizing every time i sound dull or down - worried that i am dragging other people down my damp, muddy hole.
Being emotional and sensitive is now frowned upon, while sounding practical and logical is praised. Well i am sorry but when people tell me with straight, serious and nonchalant expressions on their faces that happy marriages are a myth and that 90% of men cheat of their wives; i just can't seem to play up to that 'grown-up' - i am realistic role. I still want to believe in love and i still want to dream of having a happy family. "You are so naive" they say, "dont get upset at me - im just being realistic" ... That is usually when the conversation ends because i decide i do not feel like letting one conversation ruin my entire day.
The point is why would you go through life undermining some of the most important and special relationships - keeping your distance and 'watching your back' when you could live your life in a beautiful light? Anyway this has gone from 16 year old love affair to serious marital commitment.
Being positive can give positive results is what i am saying - all in theory of course (for now)...
I think we should try and think about things a little more like 16 year olds - minus the getting drunk on the sideswalk and crying our little fragile hearts out.
I really liked sharing your thoughts :). you write beautifully, and i completely agree sometimes its better to think the way we would when we were younger and more naive and optimistic in a way. keep being emotional and senstitive, just the way you are! looking forward to reading more of your thoughts!
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